I feel like there is an energy coursing through me lately! I have been creating again. I see photos everywhere I look and I have relearned to see beauty in the every day. I want to climb again. I really, really want to climb. Now. I want to climb out my stresses and climb to revel in my joy.
My meanie has been in a good place after a very, very long while of sickness and screaming. His twos are winding down into a charming three. He has a natural kind of thoughtfulness that he did not get from me but I appreciate it so much. I am learning empathy from a toddler. I know that the end of my child-bearing days are over and there is an absolute peace in that momentous decision. A freeing piece of knowledge that life can only get better. My sweetie just keeps getting fatter and sweeter. Teething is hard on him and he is quite addicted to me but again, knowing that my baby days are numbered allows for a kind of freedom to really enjoy it, not just endure it.
And my writing! I have been writing like a prisoner with nothing but a pen and tablet. I have been emailing and blogging and writing poetry again. I have so much inside of me lately that I must get it out. It doesn't necessarily need to go anywhere out into the cosmos, I just put it on my blog so that it is somewhere. I know no one save my closest internet-friends read this but even they don't need to. As always I have an audience in mind but that intended audience will never see my words. I don't know that I could write so freely if I thought anyone would actually look. I know you will, Stacy and Nikki, but the amazing thing about you is that you never judge and you have loved me through some of the worst times of my life. How much worse can it get in a blog?
So the Jedi that I know and love has returned! I am Katy again. I am not sure what that means, as I only have the faintest bit of knowledge gleaned from my husband and brother-in-law about The Force and whatnot, but I do know that outside forces have returned to enthuse me with a vigor of life and allow me to turn the draining parts into challenges to solve!
Katy from the hood.
A continually evolving description
- Katy
- Idaho
- I am just an average and ordinary person who likes to view the world through a Canon lens, listens to music constantly, reads poetry, chases two miniature tornadoes daily and spends way too much time online. I seek adventure whether it be on a rock, under the ocean or in a canyon, but sadly these pursuits have fallen to the wayside in favor of aforementioned tornadoes. I hope to one day return to the world of seeker, reader, photographer and more.
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